May 10, 2011
Been a bad start to the year
I have been in and out of doctor offices of late. I have come to find out I have 3 bulging disc in my neck and a tumor on my spin. They said the tumor looks ok. They are going to play the waiting game with it and see if it moves or grows. My doc. said it looks like a tumor women get. It’s a grow that feeds on estrogen and is not cancerous. I also have found out my knee is really bad. They want me in a brace but its a 200 dollar brace. I know I need it for my knee keeps shifting on me. The good new is all this has gotten me off my butt and I am now going to the YMCA at least 2 times a week I would like it to be 3. I started out that way but Easter got in the way then I was bed ridden almost for a week. Messed up my vacation I had planed. On top of all this I find out my mom has a sore that is weeping and she is diabetic now I have to make sure she get to doc. as soon as possible. I need to call today so don’t let me forget or get lazy. I have been putting a lot of things off of late. On the other hand a lot of things got taken care of last mo. I had been avoiding I guess you can call it a trade off. I know I know this is a petty party of sorts I know. I done for now. Just needed to vent a bit.October 25, 2010
Long time know wright!
It’s been a long time since i have written. I have been in tweet and Facebook. To night I thought of writing here. I’m at work and running audit so I have time. Trying to run audit has been a challenge this evening. One account was not settled right and still had a balance on it. Some one also posted a gift shop and failed to close it out. It took me 30 min. to figure out what to do. I know i did not close them out right. I just wanted to run the audit. It is now running and here i set telling you all this as if you are really interested in my work.
So here is something you might be. I am now a great-aunt. My nephew Mike and his wife had a baby her name is Madison. I have only seen her once. Every time i try to go and see her I am asked not to. So now i wait to be invited. Some thing tells me it will never happen. I have been feeling like a step child of late with my sister’s family.
I kinda told Chris (my sis) I was not coming to thanks giving I don’t need my house hold to be where it’s not wanted. My sister has some concerned that if Lauren and Aaron my niece and her husband who are living with me might try to still something from their home. Lauren and Aaron have both been known to stealing so I understand. I think we will just have a family gathering at my house I will ask Dave, Ken and mom if they want to come to my house. That way we wont be in the way of Chris and her family. I feel hurt but one can not force them selves on others. So I will wait for an invite.
On the other hand I’m getting tired of Lauren and Aaron not paying their rent. I tell them they can not have any thing as for as food if they have not brought it into the house. I told them i was not buying them toilet paper any more so the got my paper towels and were using them. I told Lauren they could not use it they needed to buy their own. I also told her to get a job. Fat chance that will be. She will lose her food stamps if she does not get her ass in line. Any way need to go for now. Have some work that needs to be done.
August 16, 2010
Co-Workers Some are Just Pains
We are remodeling the hotel i work at. The front desk has all been taken apart and has been moved to a different location. Location is not bad at all. Its just the attitudes of some of my co-workers that is driving me nut.
We have two coolers full of pop, with back up pop under a table. The 2nd shift supervisor said it was PBX’s (hotel operator) job. Who is in a different part of the hotel do to the constriction. So why would the PBX person come over and leave the phone unmanned to fill up a pop cooler witch is behind two people doing nothing? When i asked the supervisor he said if we should have to fill up this why do i have to go up there and count mod bank? told me it was the same difference.
How can it be the same difference. Only supervisors an manager have a key to that bank. This man is nuts nuts nuts.. I really do not like him the more i see him. At first he did not bother me. Now he is.
July 6, 2010
Cant get ahead
No matter what I do these days i can’t seem to keep up with my every day bills. I was unable to come up with enough money to keep my power from being turned off. I was late getting my even level pay into the power company so natural the wanted all of the money I owed. I should have been paying more then what I was. They estimated too low for what i would be using. I did pay a bit more then my bill asked off and on.
Now I’m with out power and have been since the 1st. I’m hopping to have it back on by the end of the week. No promises though. The cost of living just keeps going up and the pay scale keeps going down. I don’t know how any one is making it these days.
Since the kids want work harder at finding jobs. It looks like i need to find a part time job. I should not have to support them. I am not sure why i keep doing it. Yes i do know Its Lauren my niece. I just hope that speeding time with me will help her grow up and give her the family love she feels she has never really had. I just hope and pray some good comes for all this. Lauren is so young and still has a chance at a good life. I can only hope her husband learns and grows with her. For being 30 he is just a 20 something kid him self.
June 30, 2010
Well the kids went and returned some apps the kids pick up the other day. She also picked up her tax info now we can get their taxes done. The hardly worked so i would think they would get some money back. The way my luck is running they will owe and go go jail for not being able to pay.
Kids go back to court on the 7th so i hope they have some money set aside for their lawyers. I now Lauren has a $30 check coming in the mail I just hope it gets her for so we can give it to her lawyer. Not sure what Aaron is doing about his. I just know i cant come up with the money for him. I still have the electric bill to pay and that’s $779.00.
Not sure where i will get the money. I am thinking of a payday loan. I also have asked my younger bro for some money. I will have to talk to his payee on Wednesday. To see if they can work it out with me paying them back so how.
Well I just hope i can keep it on. Only time will tell.
June 27, 2010
Up Date on Life
Well finally found a group that would help get my niece some glasses. They paid all but $35.00. Thank God now she can get busy looking for work and start working on GED. I am hopping she will get work at the Hawthorn Hotel its close by and a friend is managing it right now.
She and her husband walked up to a few places and picked up applications now its just turning them back . I will take them around Monday morn if they get up to drop them off.
I really need them to find jobs soon. They have already wasted so much time. I do not think i can come up with the money to keep my electric on now. I make too much for United Services to help. Just my luck i get over time and now i made too much. Things always seem to work out for me but i don’t think so this time. I did find one place that could help with $50 not sure how much good that will do me. Not a lot else to say at this time.
June 15, 2010
Not Happy at all
I have not been happy for a some time now. I feel the world is coming down on me and i just keep going with no end in sight. I keep wondering why I am still here. What good am I doing any one? I cause problems at work. My house is falling down around me. I have a cat that wont use a box. The house sticks like a dead animal is under my home and cat shit. I have some I need to clean up this week.
Every time i turn a round I find I am out of something Dish soap, Milk , spot remover, paper towels. No one seem to open their mouth to tell me when we are out. I just find out when i go to use it. I am tired of taking care of some one who dose not seem to care. They just take for those around them. I hate me right now and that dose not help me work thought these issues. I think it would be best if i were not here. but here i am. i am so ready for God to take me. Am i so screwed up he wont. So many die that want to live and have a chance to do good work. I feel like i am taking up space for some one who could do better then I.
I just don’t think if fare to them to be taken and i let to fill a hole i can’t seem to feel. I just hope some day soon it will be my time. Life can be so wonderful in the right hands my time has come and gone. Now i just sleep walk waiting for my time. As you see not a good day for me.
June 14, 2010
Potato Leak Soup
I made potato leak soup today. When i went to the food pantries they gave me some potato and leaks. Never cooked with leaks before. I assume leaks are part of the onion family. So i treated them like onions.
Soup came out pretty good if I do say so myself. I like to use chicken broth instead of water to boil my potatoes. I found out I was out of milk after i got stated so i used a can of evaporated milk and some dried milk. I also used celery salt do to not having celery. Now I am having soup for dinner tonight here at work.
Now i just have to find new ways to use leaks. I still have some left… Any ideas? besides soups.
June 13, 2010
Baby Shower
Had a baby shower for my Niece in-law. She is due in September. We had one a bit early do to her mom coming in from California. My sister wanted Michele’s mom to be their for the shower. The shower was a surprise to Michele. All and all every thing went fine. My sister wished more of Michele’s friends had come as it was almost every one there was her friends or family. My sis felt a bit sad for that. I brought my youngest niece Lauren with me. I wished she had dressed a bit better. I know she has very little to chose from. I need to get the child to a store and get her some proper clothing. Every thing she has is ok to run around the house in but not to go out in. As it was no one seemed to mind her dress and every one was nice to her. Lauren was very helpful with getting drinks for every one. She also helped put mints out on the tables. I know she felt a bit uncomfortable not knowing any one there for the most part. Chris’s (my sister)best friend Barb sat with her and talked to her a bit to help make her feel comfortable. So as i said all went well, Michele got nice gifts and she was happy and surprised!My meeting with Billy Ray Cyrus
Well guess what! Billy Ray Cyrus stayed at the hotel I work at over the weekend. I was told he had left the building and flew home earlier in the day NOT! I was asked by my housekeeping staff who Billy Ray was other then Hannah Montana’s Dad. So I started singing “Achy Breaky Hart”.The song there for stuck in my head for the rest of the night. Singing and humming never really knowing the words any more.In the mean time i started to complain to a guest that i could not get that song out of my head. I look up and who is standing in front of me looking at me funny and I looking at him funny. Yeah Billy Ray him self. Only me!
