Will i did it i lost my job. Oh will such is life. Im tired any way really tired. I did work on my kitchen . Got Chris’s cats mess cleaned up. Now she has moved to anther part of the house not sure what mess she will make now. I had to throw away the kitchen chairs time will tell what next. Chris is suppose to have her son come over and get the cat and have her put to sleep. I really feel bad but i cant live like this and i may have to move and i cant take her with me. 

   I am going to give it a week to find a job starting monday be for i make the choice of walking away form my home or fighting for it. I am just really tired of fighting. Thursday a friend of mine will come down and help me freshen up my resume’. May be i will get a second wind and feel better. 

   Nothing else to say at this point so i will take off . 

    will since no one reads this dame thing any way i might as will bitch here. Their is no one here to bitch too. Their is so much i am made about i dont know where to start. Im just really really up set and i have no one to yell at or give me a hug and comfort me. 

    Ok i left here and went out and had lunch at brovos. Had a wonderful salad and app. I also had two bloody marrys I really felt i needed a drink. It was a wonderful afternoon. I sent money i did not have I will now have overdraft fees at lest two. Oh well what the h____. any way. At least i am not as up set and i think i am ready to call work and let them know i will be in monday night or if they would rather i can come in and pick up my last ck. I really don’t care any more. (I walked out on work when the manager did not back me on something with a gust.) 

   I am in so short of money any way their is now way i can pay my gas bill off before winter so i will not have heat. I have many medical bill wanted to garnish my wages. The only good thing is i can walk away form my home with no money owed i did bankrupcy befor the new laws so the bank owns my home. 

   The only problem with that is how do i get my shed to my moms and where would i live. She is a smoker i might die.lol… and my older bro is a nut. would have to pay me to live with him again. My youngest is in gov. housing because of his mental state. I am so screwed. Ho there is the shed i could live in it. i just need to have insulate the walls and bring over an extension cord. my bed will take up the whole thing but thats ok. It would be no worse then camping. lol… 

   will i’m done now i have a big head ache must be the drinks. 

  As i took a shower today i noticed a balck and blue spot on my let Hummmm….. i wonder how that got there……. Ho yeah the pig…..Thats what i get for petting the darn thing,lol…

This the the pig that attacked  me at the mail box not so mean now lol…… His owners has not let him out yet. He was winning to get out and be feed his breakfast when i stopped by this morning. 

     Getting the mail can be a bit dangerous these day. Our mail box seems to be guarded by a little black pig. With a very strong nose that can bruise  you leg. I know i have on or two. Then it pees on your foot and climes your leg as you try to walk a way. One tries to be nice and give a pat on the head and this is way one gets.lol…… beware of the PIG……

   Well i had my surgery all went well. I am left with a little cramping . The headache is gone finally. All day i keep dosing off and waking up with a start thinking some was was knocking at the door and a couple of other things i cant remember . That was a bit wired. My friend Brenda came over with cake and picked up a sandwich for dave and i at burger king. That was so nice of her. She is so good to me some times i wonder if i am as good a friend as she is to me. I hope i am.

  My brother Dave is here with me. He wanted to go do something for the 4th of july so i brought him over on the 1st. Made him help me do some cleaning i had been putting off. That will teach him. He was really good help to me. The big stuff is done so now all he has to do is keep his dishes up and not leave stuff around. Well that all folks.lol…..

      Well i go into surgery in the morning. It seem like for ever waiting for this day to come. Now that it is finally here I am nevus. I will be having hysteroscopy . Basically they will be removing fibroid tumors. So i an looking to feeling a lot better after all is said and done.