Well i finally got my Birthday Present form my from my nephews and my Nice’s. The kids pulled together and bought me some new glasses. I picked them up today. Still getting use to them. I had them make me up two pairs. One is for reading and the other for everyday. Well i guess in a day or so i shall be know how well i like them. 

   In the mean time. My gentleman friend called not sure if we will get together or not. He is out with a coworker who is changing jobs. He acted  a little distant to night. He sounded a bit up set earlyer today when he called and let me know he was intown. I thought he was having truble at work. He has a new boss and you know how they always let pepole go. Any way i will hope for the best and know he will bounce back form what ever life put in his way.

   Its kinda lonely here at work tonight. I miss having people around me of late. When my sis lived with me this over night shift was not so bad. Now that I have the house to myself I am beginning to miss having some one around. I do have my cats. I also have a really nice man who seems to be nuts about me. I am having trouble figuring out why. A few years ago i would not give it a second thought.

  I have know him for some time. I met him at my last job. I told some co workers if he wanted my number to go ahead and give it to him and we have gone out a few times and call each other almost once a day to say good morning and how are ya. He lives in Boston i live here in Kansas City. Not sure how this will all work out but its really been nice having some one interested in me.

    Well not so melodramatic today. Its been quite busy here at work today. We are having scrapbookers checking out of the hotel I work for. They have been here off and on getting carts to load up the cars for in the morning. They women said they all had fun at least the ones I have talked to. Its quite here now that its about 2am.

   I have a really nice security guy working tonight. He gets board some times and passes out the bills as well as run errands. It’s nice to have him here. Although he dose make me feel old some time as we talk about movies and such.

     Aha..To be young once more….. Then again no! I would have to go though all that crap I went though to get here again.lol…

     Well here are a few more crazy thoughts… Just been wondering if any thing would chage for someone if i was not here taking up space any more. How would that effect things. would somone with a bit more gumtion then i have a better chance at making it. One more job openjing, less air, less food, less evrey thing being used up by some one getting no where and sinking fast. 

   I really don’t want to die I like living a lot most of the time. Its just I feel like I am wasting and using up some one eles change to make a differance in the wold. I go to work come home and do nothing and i mean nothing. I just cant get going. I could be doing lots of things. Like clean this nasty house. I have been trying to do a betting job on the day to day things. Like i have been putting my dishies in the washer and vaccuming every other day. I have  really been cleaning the bathroom. Now i just need to get my ass in gear and work on one of the spare bedrooms and get it set up for when Dave my brother comes over. He has been sleeping on the sofa and it is driving me nut his stuff is all over the room when he comes and makes the place look worse then it was. 

   Sorry not sure where this is going ,not like any one reads thia any way. Ho well . Im done for now. Sorry you read this arnt you? OH Yeah no one read this any way…. 

   Well it was a nice birthday. I went out to dinner with a friend of mine. I gave him his Christmass present finally. Not sure if he liked it. It was a golf ball in a ball of water and you tryed to get the ball to set on a tee. I thought i would be somthing he could set on his desk at work. I  can just see his co wrokers comming in to see him and picking that thing up and playing with it.

   He gave me a gift card for sams club which came in real handy. I had just gotten my fridg back for the repair shop and it was and is still empty. He told me i needed to fill it up. Any way we had dinner at a mexican resteraunt. The first time i was thier is did not care for what i had. This time i liked it. Marcello did not like his this time. I think we will try somthing differnt next time.

   Latter that night i went back to his hotel room and we just talked and cuddled a bit. It was really nice It had been a really long time since i have let a man hold me. I really miss it. I headed home around 1pm and went to bed with warm thoughts in my head. Thats how i ended my birthday.